crude words alert
Let me try to break my horrible week down as much as possible into simple sentences.
Firstly I lost my voice, couldn't talk properly on Monday & Tuesday as my throat hurt like a bitch because of the IT fair I worked at last weekend.
Secondly, I was having the midweek blues on wedesday on my way to my part time job work. But it was still a fun day with my friends and we even went to catch an impromptu movie. But however it all changed again as after my short interview for a graphic design intern(before our movie), I took a rather big fall and sprained my left ankle pretty badly. Going to see a Chinese doctor tomorrow as I can't walk properly and it's really hurting me. My dignity fell flat to the floor too as well. The people around me tried to help me up which I tried to shake it off and pretend I'm alright but in actual fact my ankle was pain as fuck.
Thirdly, the next thing that completely sums up how awful my week was going, as recently I entered a competition that my lecturers kind of sign me up for. I made it all the way to the top 3 finalist which I was really happy actually that I made it that far??
However upon reaching and presenting, I realized it was not the same from the first 3 presentation I had done; the people would fucking interrupt you when you are presenting half way. Ok I understand the need to ask 1-2 questions but isn't it basic POLITENESS or RESPECT to allow the person presenting to fucking finish what they are saying first then the question part can come after??
They fucking interrupted me so much that we spend 20mins talking answer Q&A that after i noticed I had no time left to talk the rest of my work, so when they asked me anything else I wanted to show, I just didn't care anymore and said no and left the presentation stage. I didn't want to waste time since the person was so harsh and also wasted the next person who was waiting in line's time.
And no I'm not being a whiny bitch, if you think boo hoo a presentation failed and I'm suppose to suck it up and stop whining - F off. Like I said this was different. And if I'm suppose to suck up every horrible feeling I always have and not let it out through crying or ranting, I would probably turn sucidical or into a psycho. Youths are always told to "keep quiet" or "stop whining", like we are not allowed to have problems?? I call bullshit.
I can totally understand if this is "industry world" or "working world" bla bla the world is harsh and tough boo hoo and they were being strict about my concept or idea.
BUT the qns weren't even about my concept?!?.... Like I would totally explain it as much as I could but NOPE. The questions were all some weird ass question esp when one of them weren't even paying attention and expected me to waste time to repeat shit again. Like what the actual fuck.
So yeah sparing any readers here the pain of reading my super ass long rant, in short it was a fucked up week. I wasn't sure if I was crying and being emotional because of just me being emotional or was it just because things were slowly getting bad to worse just made me super angsty and upset with everything.
Through it all I try to see the positive sides because you know too much negative is bad, we need some balance in life.
So firstly; I got back my voice. Though it's still abit raspy but just in time.
Secondly; I laughed a lot on Monday and Tuesday(no particular reason why) but a lot of things were funny and the jokes shared with my friends and boyfriend was just so laughter contagious.
Thirdly; I got to eat my yogurt again.
Fourth; got to catch a good movie with the classmates.
Fifth; though one of my homeland nation founding father has just passed away, I'm thankful for everything he did. I may not wear patriotism on my sleeve but there is not one day where I'm not thankful for being a Singaporean. It's not perfect but I can fully let my guard down, the safety, the benefits of a safe and clean city, the daily convenience which we don't think twice about. Hence I'm extremely thankful for this leader's effort and dedication.(quote) :)
Six; Though my ankle sprain is really more serious than the previous ones, I'm thankful and glad that it wasn't too serious that I have to lose my feet or leg.
Seven; thankful for my loved ones and good friends that encourage me when I'm super upset, the ones that don't just want to be there when you're successful and happy but the ones who are really there when you feel like you've hit rock bottom. My pillars of support.